Friday, October 8, 2010

"You're in trouble now"

Makenzie went to her pulmonologist the other day for a yearly check up. She is 34.2" tall and 27.7lbs. The doctor was thrilled with her progress and said that since she has had no issues thus far, that she doesn't need to keep seeing him. He did say, of course, that her chronic lung disease still puts her at high risk and she could still become extremely sick if she were to get RSV for example. Cold/flu season is now here and so we will be limiting her contact as usual. Her speech is astounding now and she even has shown her little bossy streak. The other day she said to me, "Be quiet Mom! Ian napping!". The other day when I was trying to fix my phone she said, "Oh you're in trouble now". HAHAHAHA That gave me a good laugh.

Ian is doing good. His colic seems to have passed and since week 14 he has been sleeping 8-11 hours at night. Getting more sleep is WONDERFUL! : ) It makes for a happy baby and a happy mommy.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

The kiddos

Time for some much needed updates. Ian is now 3 months old as of this past Monday. He weighs 13.5lbs and is 23 1/2" long. We had about a week where we thought the colic was gone, and unfortunately we were wrong. He is one fussy, crying, spit up, not sleeping baby. But he also loves to squeal, coo, smile, and laugh when he isn't fussing. He's really starting to look like an older baby now and he is just so adorable. Rick is currently working on his special, homemade first Halloween costume.

Makenzie will be 2 1/2 next month. She is into coloring, Hello Kitty, playdoh, stickers, dancing, dinosaurs, being a great big sister, etc. She is currently cutting one of her back molars which is causing her some discomfort. She often uses 5 word sentences now. Kenz is still super sweet, well-behaved, thoughtful, and cuddly. I really love this age with her.

A fellow preemie mother who has also lost a child came across a website that has launched a campaign to promote awareness for National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberence Day on October 15th. The website is: I submitted a picture and Luke's name but I'm not sure if they are on the website yet. Every year we do something special to remember Luke by on October 15th and I'm pondering what we will do this year. Last year Rick and I made special charms to hang from our rear view mirrors in our vehicles.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Picture link

I don't have time to post pics right now. So I am going to put the link to Ian's album on Facebook. You do NOT need to have a Facebook to see the pictures.

Ian laughed for the first time the other day, and Rick, Me, and Kenzie all saw/heard it. : )

Sunday, August 29, 2010

It's been a LONG time...

I cannot believe it has been this long since I have posted. I'm sorry! Every time I meant to write something, time got away from me or one of the kiddos needed something. I'll try to bring everyone up to date...

Ian is now 10 weeks old and doing great. At his two month check up he weighed 11lb 10oz and was 22 1/2" long (he was 5lb 12oz at birth and 18 1/4" ). He's a piglet! He was on medicine for acid reflux for about a month. He's had colic for the last month. He smiles and coos and is just super cute. Unfortunately breastfeeding didn't work out for me or Ian, (and that is putting it lightly) so I am pumping so Ian still receives soley milk. I've been told he looks like me and I'd have to agree. At night he will usually sleep for a solid 5-6 hour stretch. He's already grown out of clothes and has rolls on his legs and his arms, along with a huge double chin. It's really been wonderful having a "normal" experience this time around. I still look at him in disbelief sometimes. I'm so happy I made it to 36 weeks and had a baby come home WITH me from the hospital. Ian is such a wonderful addition to our family.

Makenzie is now 28 months and doing AMAZING. Last Friday she had her second and last speech therapy session. And would you believe that she caught up so quickly that she is actually ahead?! She scored at 29 months for expressive and 30 months for receptive! I am so proud of her. She really loves Ian and enjoys being a big sister. She always finds ways to help me, whether it's handing me a diaper or putting his clothes in the laundry basket. Kenzie also does things for Ian that she sees me do. She'll tuck his blanket around him or wipe his mouth with his bib. She acts like a little mommy; the nurturing comes naturally to her. She is definitely a rambunctious toddler. She's either running around with her arms behind her flapping her hands acting like a bumble bee flying, singing, dancing, or getting into stuff. She is still very well behaved, but is starting to test her limits. Sometimes if she is being told not to do something she will look at you and say "Shhhh! (with a finger to her lips) Stop." We have no idea where she got that from and it's so cute it's almost hard to keep a straight face. That little stinker. She has manners and says 'please', 'thank you', and even says 'bless you' when someone sneezes. My favorite is when Ian sneezes and she says, "Bless you baby Ian." Oh and I have to mention that Makenzie prounounces his name 'Eon'. For the first month, every day all day she was saying "Baby Eon! Baby Eon!". It would be the first thing out of her mouth each time she woke up. : ) I have heard her say Ian correctly a few times, but she still prefers to say Eon.

As for me, I was able to go off the blood pressure medication a few weeks after Ian was born. I enjoy taking care of two kids and it's not as hard as I thought it would be. I love watching Makenzie interact with Ian and I can't wait until he is old enough to play with her. My friend once told me that having another child made her love her first child even more. I completely understand that now and seeing Makenzie in a "little mommy" role just melts me. We had a lot of family come visit, and it was nice for everyone to meet Ian and see how sweet Makenzi is. Rick is doing good and has been such a help with the kids. It's hard not having any family near by to help, but having a supportive husband sure makes it easier.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Welcome baby Ian!

On Father's Day, June 20th, we welcomed our baby boy into the world!!!!!!! I was exactly 36 weeks along and he was born at 2:48pm weighing 5lbs 13oz. His name is Ian and he's adorable! Even though he was born four weeks early he was discharged on Tuesday from the hospital with me. He's a little jaundice but that is expected. I was almost not discharged b/c of blood pressure issues. I had been in and out of the hospital days prior to the birth b/c of pre-eclampsia. I am currently still having high blood pressure and had to start medication today. I would have likely been induced this week anyway, but my body decided to go into labor on its own. Makenzie likes her baby brother and wears her big sister bracelet every day. I will try to write more later and post pictures. We are so happy to have our Ian at home and doing well!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010


It was two years ago today that our precious son Luke, Makenzie's twin brother, had to leave our arms and head to heaven. Nothing can prepare a parent for the death of a child. I remember the morning after Luke passed away; it was awful waking up to a day that I no longer had my son. Each day that passed made the pain hurt worse b/c it made it another day since I had held my son. And now even though we are adjusted to our new sense of normalcy, the pain is always fresh and always will be. We always wonder what he would look like, what his personality would be like, how Makenzie and him would have played together, and what it would have been like to watch him grow up.

Tonight we are going to start a small garden in our backyard in memory of Luke. We will be planting several seed packets of wildflowers to start with. We will light his candle and give Makenzie extra tight hugs. It's not hard to forget that we came quite close to losing both of them. And it's so hard knowing that Makenzie will grow up without her twin. Luke was our first born, our first son, and Makenzie's twin brother. He will always be all of those things, b/c the separation we have from Luke from earth to heaven does not break those ties.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Back in April...Rockin' to Lady Gaga


Finally more pictures!

Above: Having fun with Daddy, Below: Sitting on her big girl potty

Belly pics! : )

Above: Kenzie at Ft. Pickens, Below: Kenzie's 2nd birthday cake that Rick made for her

Just Kenz and the doggies (Remmy on the left, Brody aka Boo on the right) after their bath

Above and Below: Kenzie being a little bunny and Kenzie's first Easter egg hunt.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Pure joy

Tomorrow I am 34 weeks! 34 weeks marks a huge milestone in lung maturity and development. I remember thinking at the beginning that if I could just make it to at least 34 weeks, and now I am here. I went to the doctor on Friday and everything is still going great. The doctor did a really quick ultra sound scan and said that the baby, placenta, and fluid level all looked good. I'm so thankful and excited to still be pregnant, but words can't really even express it. I'm also thankful to even BE pregnant. Baby boy's movements have been pretty painful at times lately. A few kicks and jabs have actually made me yelp. I continue to be hot, uncomfortable, swollen, have trouble sleeping, and I love every minute of it. Little guy has the hiccups right now as I'm typing. :) We are very fortunate to have family who have bought us the few expensive things that we need for the baby. The crib was picked out today!

Makenzie is...quite simply put...the most adorable little girl in the world. She has so much personality. She loves to show off and is quite the ham. Lately you could find her singing, dancing, coloring, bossing the dogs around, or rubbing my belly. Kenzie's speech has definitely continued to progress. She says more words on her own and tries to repeat more of what she hears. She has this little white bear that was thrown to her at the Mardi Gras parade. It's her most favorite thing ever in history. She always has to sleep with it and usually carries it around the house. If she loses track of him, she starts wondering around looking for him saying, "Bear! Bear!". He's quite a ratty little thing and I probably would have thrown him out if she wasn't so obsessed with him. So instead he goes into the washer and dryer while she is preoccupied.

Being pregnant this long really just makes me even more baffled that Kenzie and her twin brother were born at 23 weeks. Makenzie is such a miracle. I still just stare at her in disbelief and amazement. When she's in public no one can ever tell that she was a micro-preemie; and what I find almost amusing is when people ask how old she is they always say she is tall. To Rick and I of course she is huge b/c the kid was 11 1/2 inches long when she was born! In April when she was at the doctor she was 33 1/4 inches tall. I'm not even sure if that is considered short, average, or tall for her age. To us, it's 33 1/4 inches of pure joy.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Last week we had people from Early Steps come to the house to make the final evaluation on Makenzie to see if she does qualify for their speech therapy program. The psychologist worked with her and her developmental scores were perfect and even above perfect in every single category. So according to that she didn't qualify. The speech therapist who was working with her knew that she does need therapy and evaluated her using a different method. That method easily qualified her for therapy. Makenzie communicates very very well, she just doesn't have a big enough vocabulary for her age yet. (She says around 30 words.) So starting in mid June a speech therapist will come to the house once a week for about an hour to work with Kenzie. I think she'll enjoy interacting with someone else than me! Her speech has been progressing more lately and she is much more eager to try to say new words.

Nothing else is new with her, she's just doing great. She is really obsessed with the dogs right now. Whatever room she is in she usually wants them to follow her so she calls for them, "Boo!!!! Rem Rem!!! Boooooooo!". It's really cute. Of course Boo (Brody) is the deaf one so he can't hear her. He is pretty much attached to my hip, so he is almost always right where we are anyway. Makenzie is really good at saying "peeeze" (please) so cutely that you would just hand her a million dollars if you had it. Her favorite things to do are color (which she can sit and do FOREVER) and dance. Every day we have a dance party and turn on the stereo. It's pretty much too hot to play outside now, especially for me! Oh wait, how could I forget?! We bought Makenzie a potty and she went pee pee on her potty after only a day and a half! She was really eager to sit on her potty and now it seems she's lost interest which is okay. My goal wasn't to potty train her right away, but to introduce her to it. I don't want to push her.

As for me, I'm now 32 weeks which is almost hard to believe. I was just telling Rick today how it's been such a roller coaster of emotions this entire pregnancy and we never knew if we would make it this far. Now that we are here, full term doesn't seem so far away anymore! : ) I cannot imagine my belly getting any bigger than it already is, but I know I'm in for a lot more to come! Being pregnant in Florida during the 'hot season' is not something I suggest to anyone, lol! It's only May and I already long for cooler weather, which won't come until November. Every day I feel like a swollen, sweaty whale. We are really excited about this baby boy and have narrowed down our name list (we won't pick a name until we meet him though). We've been looking at cribs and trying to get things ready for his arrival. I don't want to assume that I will go to 37-40 weeks so I want to be prepared.

Monday, May 10, 2010


I hadn't realized it had been a while since I last posted. Makenzie went to her annual well-child check up and she measured 33 1/4" tall and weighs 25lbs. She's had this weird face rash off and on for weeks. She wakes up in the morning with the rash and we put cortizone and aquaphor on it. It goes away and then comes back. She has no other symptoms and no rash anywhere else on her body. We had suspected it could be from drool while she sleeps since we think she is cutting her molars. The doctor figured it has to be an allergy, possibly even a food allergy. The rash was gone for a week and she woke up today with it all over her face. We think we may have found the culprit...her lotion. Last night was bath night and Rick puts lotion all over her. All of her bath stuff and lotion are Green Baby which is almost completely organic, hypo-allergenic and has no parabens of phalates. Unfortunately the rice/mallow lotion might the cause of the rash. If so, I'll use the lotion myself b/c I've been trying to switch most of my bath/beauty products to organic stuff.

I am 30 weeks now which feels amazing to say! The number has a '3' in front of it, which means I'm finally officially out of the 20s weeks. The end is in sight and I've felt super excited and a little anxious. I want to get the crib and get things all ready for the baby. I don't want to assume I'll go to 37+ weeks, even though that's what we are obviously hoping for. The progesterone update is this...after the doc's office said to stop the shots with sesame oil b/c of my allergic reactions, I had the Apothecary make new shots with a different oil. The doctor said it was most likely the oil I was allergic to, so switching to a new oil would hopefully work. Well, it didn't. The first shot with the new oil wasn't bad but I was itching later that week. The second shot with the new oil was completely awful. Rick gave me the shot in the morning and the injection site stung/burned so badly that it felt like I was being repeatedly stung by wasps ALL DAY. I had to put ice packs on my rear and that helped some. So I had to fill the scrip for the progesterone pills. I started them last Tuesday and I have to take 3 a day. They bother my stomach just a little bit and they make me tired, but nothing too bad. Since the pills are known to not be as effective as the pills we are hoping they are effective enough to keep me from going into labor soon. I will be going off the pills at 34 weeks. From the research I've found it seems that most women deliver within 1-2 weeks after going off progesterone. But then there are those that still go the full 40 weeks. So we just won't know until it happens. My goal is to not have one single day in the NICU. We walked through those doors for 117 consecutive days before, and I do not want to have to walk through them again to go see my baby. I want my healthy baby in the room with me nursing and then coming home with me when we are both discharged. I don't want to have to leave the hospital alone again. That's an awful feeling. I'm hoping, and praying, and staying positive that it all works out. : )

I had a nice Mother's Day weekend with Rick and Kenzie. Yesterday I wore my urn necklace and lit Luke's candle. I feel honored to have known him and be his mother. We played with Kenzie all morning and we also took cute pictures of my giant belly. So yesterday I was able to celebrate all three of my children in my own way.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Little Miss Independent

We received Makenzie's full evaluation from Early Steps and it showed that (besides speech) she is all caught up to her real age, no more need to use an adjusted age. the area of cognition it said she is AHEAD! Born at 23 weeks, and now considered to be past 24 month kids in that area. Unbelievable. I could go on and on about what a miracle she is, and how we are so blessed, but I think it goes without saying. Our new case worker for Early Steps is coming by Monday for me to sign some papers and get her set up for speech therapy. I'll be glad to get her started. Though I still continue to realize she says more than we think, her wordage is just hard to understand sometimes. Yesterday she said, "Yay, I did it!". Besides the 'thank yous', and 'love yous', she has also added 'please' into her vocabulary. She does grunt a lot and mostly chooses not to use words. I read to hear a lot, and try to encourage her to use words. But tell the kid to sing and she'll sing all day long!

I can tell she's becoming more confident in the little person she is. Today we had a picnic at the park and then we played. She wanted to go up the playground stairs to the slide completely by herself now. I went to grab her hand to help her up the stairs, even though I know she holds on and could do just fine by herself. She jerked her hand away immediately as if I embarrassed her in front of the other kids nearby. It was just a simple pull away move that said, "I can do it myself Mom". And she did. She went down the slide probably five times. Makenzie is also big enough to ride the bouncy critters (not sure what they are really called, I just call them the critters). She was rockin' and rollin' on those things! A few of them were low enough that she could get on them by herself too. I can tell that getting out in the "real world" just makes her come alive b/c I can see it in her eyes. Though outwardly she is a little reserved b/c it is a lot for her to take in, and since she can't say much she's quiet. Most of the kids just stare at her and adults always say she looks tired. Of course they have no clue what she's been through and that it's a miracle that she can even climb those stairs to the slide. Not to mention, she is only two. A parent today saw Makenzie intently watching three young boys run around and he said, "You'll be doing that soon too." Finally someone who realized a child doesn't have to run around like an insane monkey to have fun at the park. : ) Makenzie is happy just to be there.

Things are going well with the pregnancy. On Sunday I will be 28 weeks which means the official start of the third trimester!!! I am soooo excited to see that milestone. Tuesday was the first shot with a new oil. So far so good! I'm tired, hot, swollen, itchy, make a zillion trips to the bathroom all day and night, and can't get comfortable, but I'm thankful for all those things b/c that means I'm still pregnant. Bring it on! : )

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Hoping for needles

Not sure how, but I think I managed to forget to tell everyone on the previous blog post that Makenzie has started saying "I love you" and "thank you" over the past few weeks. She's said both without being told to say them too. When she first told me she loved me I melted into a million pieces and almost cried.

Tomorrow I'll be 27 weeks along. I've been really tired lately, but I think b/c the baby is going through a growth spurt. I went to the high risk doctor on Wednesday and things are going so well that he did not reschedule me. He said I don't have to come back unless there is a problem. Baby boy is doing great and that day they said he weighed 2lbs 2oz. When the ultra sound nurse was checking my placenta and cervix she said, "You aren't having this baby anytime soon". I sure hope she is right! I will still continue to see my regular OB every two weeks and then every week. I go for my glucose test on Monday morning.

The only problem right now is the progesterone shots. Over the past two weeks I was getting these awful welts at the injection site that itched SO FIERCE. When I told the doc and he saw the welts, he said my body had formed an allergic reaction to the oil that the progesterone is suspended in. He said not to do any further shots with that mixture. He told me to call the Apothecary and have them suspend the progesterone in a different oil. So I am going to buy one shot a week now and not four at a time. I have two shots left that are now useless. Plus, buying one shot a week will be an easy way to stop them if I continue to have a reaction to the new oil. My current shots were made with sesame oil which is most commonly used b/c it is said to have the least allergic reactions. Apparently not for me! I have 1o more shots to go, with week 36 being the last week. I really hope that the new oil will work b/c the shots are the most effective. As a back up plan, the doc gave me a script for an oral progesterone that I'd have to take 3x a day, but that's only if the shots don't work. The pills are not nearly as effective as the shots b/c they go through your system before going to the bloodstream. So I hope I am able to continue with the shots...never thought I'd actually HOPE to get a giant needle stuck in my rear end every week!!! LOL